Robin: It's not like I'm a health preofessional in any way, but I've been
living w/pain fior so long (16 years) it's like the guest that doesn't know
when to leave. I've had 8 surgeries in 8 years, the last 6 years I've
decided to try & get along (I hesitate to say live, that's a toughy) w/out
any more surgeries. My gyn told me that he wouldn't do anymore surgery on me
unless it was life-threatening. And I trust his judgement. Having
surgery might not help you and can indeed make things worse. I don't mean to
sound like a doomsayer, but when I read your post, I felt your frustration &
anger at this Thing that cannot be fought with. Some days I'd love to give
up hte ghost & just end it myself, but I don't. I don't know why, buit I
don't. I mean, God, if we were animals they'd have put us down by now,
right. I guess as people we must suffer & endure. As my Mom always tells
me: "When a window is closed, God open a door". I'm still looking for that
door, I kmnow it's there somewhere.