I can understand your frustration. My lap 6 weeks ago was fantastic - for the first week; pretty good - for the second week; and it has been all downhill from there.
I go back to the specialist in Fredericton on Tuesday for a follow-up. Since the lap, the pain has come back at times worse than what it was before the lap. I don't want to eat, I can't sleep, I have no strength or energy to do anything. I can't keep my feet and legs warm. When I stand up, I can't be sure if my legs are going to hold me up or not, because most of the time I can't feel them. Apparently the adhesions have involved the bowel, intestines, and the nerves and circulation to my legs. I can't drive for more than a few minutes, I can't sit at the computer for more than a half hour. I can't have sex. I can't work in my flower garden.
My constant refrain seems to be "I can't". But that also means "I can't give up hope" - and neither can you or anyone else who suffers from adhesions.
Every week, I light a candle for hope. Some weeks I don't even feel like sitting through church, but I go anyway. Whatever Higher Power put us here also created adhesions, possibly to test us. I have faith that we will get through this, and come out the other side better people than we were before.
Don't give up Karla - on yourself, on your doctors, or on the rest of us in this group. We know what you're going through, even if no one else seems to understand.
Nancy
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