Re: My story

From: Sue Ann Murray (murraysa@penn.com)
Thu May 11 23:43:18 2000


> Helen has been after me for a while to write my story and share it with
the > group. It is very hard for me to do this.....to think of all that I have
> been through and all that I have yet ahead of me. I am scared...both for
my > past and for the future that lies ahead of me. I don't know exactly why I
> am afraid for my past....maybe a sense that I have allowed the doctors to
do > too much damage...I don't know. But......here it is....it is very
long...if > it helps one person I will have done my job.

Karla, I saved your story to read later and just now got around to it. I think you have every right to be scared. But I am praying that you can also find some hope with the new doctors and I will be praying that this is the last surgery you will need because it is so successful. And for somewhat different reasons, I understand the fear for the future. I began a three month leave this week so I can deal with the various health issues I have and hopefully regain some energy. Right now my main problems are fatigue and depression and whether or not I can get those under control, I don't know. And what I do after the three months is a big question mark. Living with uncertainty does make life interesting doesn't it? Of course, I do sometimes pray that life could be a little boring. Boring is not always bad! :>)

Sue Ann


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