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From: "Lynne Brown" <email@example.com> To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <firstname.lastname@example.org> Sent: Tuesday, June 13, 2000 4:16 PM Subject: Re: How do we get through horrible days
> Hi everyone, me again.
> Every night I come home (around 5.30pm) I check the forum. You know I
> miss it that you can talk during the day and then when I come home you
> are all in bed and I miss you.
> My Doctor is still at her tricks re.the prescription for the DHC (pain
> killers). Jim rang yesterday and she was off ill (forgive me, but I
> actually hoped she was in pain herself). We couldn't get the
> pescription. Today she left work at lunch-time and again did not leave
> a prescription. Jim finally got it sorted tonight and I went to bed
> (it's my birthday) and cried my eyes out. Today I really do think that
> if it wasn't for Jim I could just take the whole bottle of tablets and
> go to sleep. All the pain would be over. Just typing that sounds so
> nice. I'm feeling very sorry for myself and I'm letting the pain beat
> me but I can't help it.
> Anyway, I don't know if it was a sign or not, but Dr Wiseman came back
> to me today with the names of Doctors in the United Kingdom. Thank you
> so much Dr Wiseman. I'll try to contact them tomorrow and will also try
> to find a new G.P.
> I'm going to tell you a prayer which was my mum's favourite, you will
> probably know it
> One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach
> with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each
> scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to
> him and the other to the Lord.
> When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at
> the footprints in the sand.
> He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one
> set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
> and saddest times in his life.
> This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
> "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me
> all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times
> in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why
> when I needed you most you would leave me"
> The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child I love you and I would
> never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see
> only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you"
> The prayer helps a little although at the moment I don't feel like I'm
> being carried.
> Please forgive me. I'm just having a really horrible day, people wise
> (my GP) and pain wise.
> See you all tomorrow night.
> With love to you all because you know how I feel.