I only meant that I have difficulties staying positive all the time and YES if I would have to live like this for the rest of my life, I would consider it for sure. I don't know if you read my message after laster concerning fighting the insurance, but I won my fight! The insurance will cover all expenses for me to go to Germany! So I am leaving this afternoon to Holland to spend some time with my family and my surgery will be April 24, 2001. Thanks for caring and responding, I really appreciate it. For the next coming 2 weeks I will take you up on your offer and write to you all whenever I am in need. And that will be a lot, since I am very scared and nervous for yet another surgery. Sally, I am sorry if I gave you the wrong impression. I am a fighter and i will never stop. Sometimes it is just very hard to live like this.
I will keep in touch for sure. Take care Love, Pascale
At Wed, 04 Apr 2001, Sally Grigg wrote:
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>Dear Pascale, it sounds like you have made a decision, and not the right one.
>I'm still alive, and I don't know your pain, only my own, and my own thoughts
>that it could all be over with so quick and easy, but STOP RIGHT THERE. Maybe,
>I'm wrong, but please live. You have a whole group of people here on the net
>to talk to and complain to and tell us your hopes and dreams. Please answer me
>back. We care. Love, Sally in California in the northern wilderness.
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