Re: a poem you might be able te relate to

From: Millie (milliem@citlink.net)
Thu Apr 5 09:58:46 2001

Jackie, I can tell you that you have expressed my feelings exactly. Today is a very bad day for me. I am beyond depressed.I had a colonoscopy on Tuesday. Yesterday she told me it was normal, and that she passed the scope all the way through. But today I have a lot of pain, and when I made a small bm, this morning , I noticed a spot of blood on the tilet paper. I called her office again, even though I hated to.I write things down, too, but I'm not good with poetry. Jackie, I often say that I wish I had died on the Operating Room table in January, rather than be like this or worse. I know I shouldn't be saying it, but I just can't help it. I can't see myself ever getting better, only worse. Millie

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From: jackie burgess To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS Sent: Thursday, April 05, 2001 8:24 AM Subject: a poem you might be able te relate to

PAIN

My heart aches and is full of remorse For all the pain and suffering that's in full force It's there, it's real and not in my mind It's intense; it's frightening Without an end in sight

There should be hope of help in the future But now there's a tunnel getting darker and darker With the hope getting smaller and smaller

It's lonely, it's isolating, and it's scary too Is there anyone out there that feels like I do? All I want is my life back to normal With pain free times and some sort of quality to my life

It's important to see the destruction it causes Pain is REAL and so cruel The way I'm going I just keep falling and falling

Who do I turn to? What do I do? Where do I go? There's nowhere to run What should happen, is a life full of some fun

Please! Do not doubt me I'm hurting inside, please, don't stand in denial Try to understand the pain; it's not how I want my life to be One day who knows I may be PAIN FREE!

By Jackie B england 2001-04-02

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