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From: jackie burgess
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
Sent: Saturday, April 07, 2001 12:45 PM
Subject: Re: FOR MILLIE
Hi Millie thanks for ur kind words I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW U R FEELING i to sometimes wish i handnt made it through the peritionitis. its been a long long battle resulting in 17 ops in 5 yrs, with, what looks like another op pending. i havent been able to eat for about 1 month and keep bringing what little i do eat back up again i have lost 5 kilos(i dont know if thats a lot to lose in 1 month)havent been out of the house except for drs appointments have been in bed 22hr a day for a month, and finding someone willing to operate on me is like looking for a needle in a haystack. my dr thinks i will end up having more surgery, at the moment i'm on lot of morphine, but most nights i end up crying with pain,anger,frustration, guilt desperation, totally useless as a mum. u name it i feel it. what life is it to live like this i said to my wondeful husband the other night in desperation, i'd rather not have a life than live like this, if it wasnt for the children and my hubby i dont think i would be here now. i feel so alone especially when im stuck in bed for all that time, the longest i spent in my bedroom was 1 year ,before the hospital finally agreed to operate on me, by this time i was down to 7 1/2 stone i dont know what that is in kilos .BUT WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE WE R FIGHTING A CONTINIOUS BATTLE with the medical proffession, they know this condition ARD exists, but are reluctant to help. anyway wont depress u anymore just had to vent some feelings, hope u dont mind
regards jackie B england