I wish I could help you! Your perserverence in working (as well as others here) is the inspiration I use each morning to go on myself. You have a lot to give and I hope and pray that you keep the strength to carry on.
I am driving to work and trying to get through 8-9 hours of work a day. Some days I can't make it in, but I can dial into work and get enough done to justify my paycheck. And then there are those days that I can't do anything but cry.
I have been lucky so far that the people here like my work and are willing to forgive a lot to keep me. They are concerned on a personal basis and not just a business one. They keep telling me that they get the hours back from me when I'm feeling better. (I have managed an out of town business trip and one or two 12 hour days.) My greatest fear is that I WON'T be able to pay them back for those hours they have forgiven me for not getting anything done. That I will just get worse and not be productive.
I have such problems with not being able to work, besides needing a job for money and insurance. I get sad at the thought of not contributing in some way to my family and friends.
Oh, well! I'd best get to doing some of that work!
kcmo rose