Hi Lori ,
thanks for writing,
sometimes it really helps me to write poetry, as its the only way i can
express how i feel. sometimes i cant even tell my hubby how i feel because
of the strain it has on him, sometimes WE forget that our partners, husbands
r suffering too, but in a different way. ther'e pain is because they cant
help us, although they would give anything to take the hurt away, and also I
have found when u have been ill for so long 'friends' stop visiting, caring
like they used to, do u know what i mean??
I have felt exactly how u have and the only thing that stopped me was the
children and my hubby, oh how selfish I was to even think such a thing, It
is tough dealing with ARD knowing i'll never be free from it but i take each
day as it comes, most of the times i'm in bed 20 hours plus a day. I havent
cooked a meal in over 2 months now, but i just have to try to get on with
it, as they say. Have u ever tried writing your feelings down, or making a
diary, write it down as soon as it comes into your head, it may work for
you. good luck
feel free to write any time