Hi Sally,
I know it is so hard to have that operation again! I get so scared
before and after that it takes me weeks to calm down. There are some of
us who have had multiple operations and the adhesions grow right back
and that I think has got to be the most difficult thing in the world. I
went to Germany twice. I knew that my adhesions were pretty well gone
the first time but he missed the stuck nerve. That was even more
painful than the adhesions. Although it got 50% better I still had to
live on Methadone. It took another 13 months before I had the courage
to do it again. It is not a peice of cake but I can give you pointers
on how to make it easier if you would like. In Germany they do not have
caffeine free coffee and I found myself drinking much too much which
wired me, of coarse and if I had to do it over again, I would quit
caffeine before I went and brought my own decalf or tea. In any event,
it is painful and scary but with lots of prayers this time (I had entire
churches praying for me this time), I am now healed. It has been only 4
weeks but each day I am geting stronger and the nerve stopped. I have
dropped down to 3 pain pills a day from 8 or so and try to go down a
little at a time. I can't wait until all my strength is back. You must
go and face your fears. You are in good hands in either place. Love
and prayers to you, Joanne
At Wed, 02 May 2001, Sally Grigg wrote:
> >Hello everybody, I just can't take it anymore, I'm scared to death of >operations because of the past, but I can't exist like this. I'm on as much pain >medication as my body will handle and its not enough, so its either Pennslyvania >or Germany. I know it will be awhile before I can get in and the Inn is short on >help and long on work. But if you can't give up, and no body wants you to kill >yourself, and you're in agony and getting worse, what do you do? Goodby, Sally