>
> Dear Sally,Boy,do I have kids of a different kind. A Keeshond and a
> Great Pyrenees. But no human kids. I feel left out at times when I see
> a young woman with kids. I wonder what I did that was so wrong,if you
> know what I mean. Even Dr. Redan emailed me & doesn't feel it's
> adhesions. I am so beyond dejected. Thank you so much for caring. But
> if I didn't have Ed, and my Dad, I wouldn't be here. Even my Dad knows
> there's something wrong. Sally, I know something's happening, and I
> think I know what it means.Thanks for being here for me, and for being
> so kind,too.Love,Millie
>
>> ----- Original Message -----
> From: Sally Grigg
> To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
> Sent: Friday, June 01, 2001 10:01 PM
> Subject: Re: To Millie
> Dear Millie, do you have children? I don't. My PID caused
> permanent infertility. I raised my step-son who had brain
> cancer at the age of 5, his I.Q. is 45 and to be honest,
> he's not very rewarding with the feed back of good vibes. He
> yells at me all the time for what he wants, partly because
> he's going deaf. We give him everything we can, but we've
> had to teach him manners and limits also. Everyone says what
> a good job we've done, but I don't see it. Anyway, I was
> jealous of pregnant women for years, but at some point I
> realized that God had fashioned a different road for me.
> There's no going back. Love and buck up. Tomorrow is another
> day. Find someone to help or something your body will let
> you do that feels good. And don't let anybody judge you or
> don't let us judge you either. No body can do that. Just do
> your best to stay alive and harm no one. Love and great big
> hugs, Sally
>
> Millie wrote:
>
> > Karen,I had my coat,pants and keyboard all soaked from
> > tears. If it wasn't for Ed and my Dad, I don't think I'd
> > be here. I hate to be honest, but everytime I see a young
> > girl or a young woman who I know has a uterus, it makes
> > things that much worse on me. I don't have too much to do.
> > I do paint those little village buildings. I write things
> > down, but not good thoughts. Thank you for 'sticking'by
> > me.Love,Millie
> >
>> > ----- Original Message -----
> > From: KCarter706@aol.com
> > To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
> > Sent: Friday, June 01, 2001 5:37 PM
> > Subject: To Millie
> > Millie;
> >
> > What do you mean you have to get out of here NOW
> > ? I hope you meant that you
> > were just signing off the web !! Gosh, don't
> > feel bad about crying in front
> > of your Dad, my Mom has been calling me to see
> > how I am feeling and for two
> > weeks I was really down in the dumps, and I
> > cried on the phone all the time.
> > Then I wrote her a long email and then SHE
> > really cried !!!
> >
> > It's ok to let out your emotions, you really are
> > dwelling too much on being
> > obstructed, if you really think you are, then
> > you should really go to the ER,
> > they can do a CT Scan and tell from that I am
> > sure. I have a hard time too
> > when it comes to dwelling on things, so I am no
> > better than you dwelling on
> > things, but between yesterday and today I think
> > I am finally pulling out of
> > my slump (depression). My psychiatrist changed
> > my Serax (anti-anxiety
> > medication)to Klonopin the other night and I
> > think that might have something
> > to do with it. And my pain management clinic
> > prescribed for me something new
> > for pain yesterday and I already feel it
> > working. I only need two a day, it's
> > not Oxycontin either, and the last time I took
> > one was at 5:30 a.m., here it
> > is 12 hours later and I don't think I quite need
> > one yet. Not unless the
> > "DEVIL" pain shoots down my leg unexpectedly.
> >
> > You take care of yourself and please think
> > positive thoughts, find a craft of
> > hobby to do, is there anything you like to do to
> > occupy your time? There are
> > hundreds of things that you could do to take
> > your mind off some of your
> > ailments, I know from myself it helps. I worked
> > in the garden the other day
> > and it kind of helped.
> >
> > I wish you the best always, Pain Free Days,
> >
> > Love,
> >
> > Karen C.
> >
> > Karen Carter
> >