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From: Sally Grigg
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
Sent: Saturday, June 02, 2001 1:54 AM
Subject: Re: To Millie
Dear Millie, what do you mean? You know somethings happening and you know what it means? Something is happening to your body, but you can't really know what it means I don't think. Have you ever tried a good counselor to talk all this through. I've been on and off for years and it can be very helpful. It doesn't take away the pain nor can it change reality, but it can help you deal with life differently. Obviously, it doesn't make you perfect, cause look at me. But please don't give up, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute . If you have any strength left try helping others. But please above all else take care of yourself. You have found a home here on this site and you belong. So please focus a little on the good and follow the light. Not having children born to you is devastating. I know. My body wanted a baby so bad it grew this enormous fibroid tumor almost as big as a baby. Whatever God's plan for you there's nothing you can do about it, accept it with love. We love you and look forward to talking to you. Take care. Sally
Dear Sally,Boy,do I have kids of a different kind. A Keeshond and a Great Pyrenees. But no human kids. I feel left out at times when I see a young woman with kids. I wonder what I did that was so wrong,if you know what I mean. Even Dr. Redan emailed me & doesn't feel it's adhesions. I am so beyond dejected. Thank you so much for caring. But if I didn't have Ed, and my Dad, I wouldn't be here. Even my Dad knows there's something wrong. Sally, I know something's happening, and I think I know what it means.Thanks for being here for me, and for being so kind,too.Love,Millie
> ----- Original Message -----
From: Sally Grigg
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
Sent: Friday, June 01, 2001 10:01 PM
Subject: Re: To Millie
Dear Millie, do you have children? I don't. My PID caused permanent infertility. I raised my step-son who had brain cancer at the age of 5, his I.Q. is 45 and to be honest, he's not very rewarding with the feed back of good vibes. He yells at me all the time for what he wants, partly because he's going deaf. We give him everything we can, but we've had to teach him manners and limits also. Everyone says what a good job we've done, but I don't see it. Anyway, I was jealous of pregnant women for years, but at some point I realized that God had fashioned a different road for me. There's no going back. Love and buck up. Tomorrow is another day. Find someone to help or something your body will let you do that feels good. And don't let anybody judge you or don't let us judge you either. No body can do that. Just do your best to stay alive and harm no one. Love and great big hugs, Sally
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Millie wrote:
Karen,I had my coat,pants and keyboard all soaked from tears. If it wasn't for Ed and my Dad, I don't think I'd be here. I hate to be honest, but everytime I see a young girl or a young woman who I know has a uterus, it makes things that much worse on me. I don't have too much to do. I do paint those little village buildings. I write things down, but not good thoughts. Thank you for 'sticking'by me.Love,Millie
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From: KCarter706@aol.com
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
Sent: Friday, June 01, 2001 5:37 PM
Subject: To Millie
Millie;
What do you mean you have to get out of here NOW ? I hope you meant that you
were just signing off the web !! Gosh, don't feel bad about crying in front
of your Dad, my Mom has been calling me to see how I am feeling and for two
weeks I was really down in the dumps, and I cried on the phone all the time.
Then I wrote her a long email and then SHE really cried !!!
It's ok to let out your emotions, you really are dwelling too much on being
obstructed, if you really think you are, then you should really go to the ER,
they can do a CT Scan and tell from that I am sure. I have a hard time too
when it comes to dwelling on things, so I am no better than you dwelling on
things, but between yesterday and today I think I am finally pulling out of
my slump (depression). My psychiatrist changed my Serax (anti-anxiety
medication)to Klonopin the other night and I think that might have something
to do with it. And my pain management clinic prescribed for me something new
for pain yesterday and I already feel it working. I only need two a day, it's
not Oxycontin either, and the last time I took one was at 5:30 a.m., here it
is 12 hours later and I don't think I quite need one yet. Not unless the
"DEVIL" pain shoots down my leg unexpectedly.
You take care of yourself and please think positive thoughts, find a craft of
hobby to do, is there anything you like to do to occupy your time? There are
hundreds of things that you could do to take your mind off some of your
ailments, I know from myself it helps. I worked in the garden the other day
and it kind of helped.
I wish you the best always, Pain Free Days,
Love,
Karen C.
Karen Carter