At Mon, 11 Jun 2001, Colette wrote:
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>Gosh ladies i'm starting to anxiety attacks its now 6 am! I really feel
>like crying i don't how much longer i can do this! I really just don't
>want to be here right now! My husbands insurance is still good untill
>june 22, but trying to get a dr appt within that time range is going to
>be impossible. So in the mean time i can't eat sleep or breath, this
>has'nt happened to me for a longtime! Its like i have the shakes or
>something yikes! I dread using the potty! why why why this i thought
>that i was tough i really did! But i guess i'm not as tough as i think i
>am! Ok now i'm crying i'm so sorry for each and everyone of you going
>through this it is horrible1 ( pass the tissues)! I have to stop soon my
>kids will be up i really don't need them to see me this way:(.
>I know i need to go to the dr's now but i'll have to wait until the new
>insurance picks up! We have a Mayo Clinic out here there suppose to be
>real good!! Should i call and make an appt now i know there is a waiting
>list so it will take me awhile to get in there!
>I'm starting to get real bad lower back pain it sends tears to my eyes
>i'm so frustrated i thought after the hyster.. that things would be
>better the only thing that has gotten better is no periods LOL!!!
>May God bless each and everyone of you! And give some answers to this
>evil thing i really don't know how much longer i can deal with this! I'm
>sorry for going on, i'm getting so depressed! Alot of you have a lot
>worse than i do.How do you do it? I am trying i read these boards
>everyday and try to make other people smile and pretend everything is ok
>when its not!!
>I'v completely stopped eating now i just drink, usually i just get the
>runs from that we'll see!! I'm starting to get pain in my pelvic area
>and lower back that won't go away!Well thank you for listening and god
>bless!
> My you have a painfree day!!!
> Love colette