christine, I can appreciate that from you, as I've
been reading about you. You're still "un-treated". I
know that the 7 months before was mentally worse for
me as I thought I was doing it to myself through
stress, and people are less likely to show concern
until a doctor diagnoses it. At least, in my case. If
you are the one with the 101 fever. You should be
concerned. My lap doctor told me if I hit 101 that I
needed to call the hopital. You are in so much pain. I
do not know your pain, I only know my own. And though
they can be close-they will not be the same. Each
person is different. I had a friend tell me once...
One can say that they stubbed their toe and they are
in pain, and her friend responds with I have cancer
and am in pain. Pain is pain. And we all feel for
that. Like when my little sister called to wish me
luck on my surgeory...she compared my surgeory to her
having a tube down her throat when they checked her
stomach...however she was awake and it was local
anesthesia...I felt bitter at that moment...thinking,
that's not the same, and you're fine and well. No bad
results. You're pain can't be as bad as mine (I
obviously sound bitter). I realize know what my friend
meant. It was her pain and it was her own. How do I
know what she went through with that, anymore then she
knows what life has been like for me. I find it very
hard to not be bitter towards any woman who can jump
around, be active. I feel jealous. I get so bitter
with anyone who makes me feel that they do not care,
that I've wished the similiar to happen to them. How
unhealthy is this for me? I realize I have to accept
this as part of my life and am tryng to put the
bitterness behind me. Though, I keep it inside, and
don't express these feelings out loud. I know it's
eating me up inside. I am fortunate so far, I get
biopsy results tomorrow from my surgeory, if those are
clear, I'll feel even more fortunate. I pray you find
good medical help. It took me 7 months of humility and
free clinics. I finally received full employment, got
medical insurance, got a doctor, and boom, diagnosis
made. Though, I've just started the job and have
missed excessive time. Legally they can't let me go
for this. So, I hope to feel better soon and to go
back to work. .....The only will that keeps us going
is in our spirit. Remember who you know you are and
were before you got sick. This is the real you. Not
the sickness. Love and Care. Thankyou for responding.
--- christine <carazr@hotmail.com> wrote:
> At Wed, 4 Jul 2001, marianne bolding wrote: > > > >Well, it's the 4th. I'm going to explode in my > stomach > >if I can't make a "natural" bowel movement. It's > been > >6 days since my lap. w/surgeory to detach the > >intestine from the ovary (no prior surgeories), and > he > > had to turn the ovary around as the intestine > turned > >it upside down. My husband seems so bitter. I > vomited > >this morning and he came in to ask me if I knew > where > >his check stub was. He knows I got sick, I think > he's > >tired of it. I need to make a bowel movement > without > >going back and forth from milk of magnesia to pepto > >bismol. I only weigh 101 now. I've lost so much > wait > >with this. Any help out there? Marianne > Dear Marianne: Im sooo sorry that youre having such > a terrible day,and > Im sorry that your husband has sorta detached > himself from your > reality..I sympathize w/ you,because the exact same > thing happens to me > too!!I havent had any lap. surgery for my adhesions > yet,but hope to > very soon!!Im currently honing in on a good doctor > first.. You should > feel better very soon,so try to keep your mind on > the immediate future > and not so much the present,okay?? Im here if you > need me, In > friendship,Christine > > http://www.adhesions.org/forums/listcmds.htm