I am so sorry to not only hear of your pain, but the the loss of your relationship. We won't ask any questions, but I can tell you honestly that (you said you had kitties) I have two doggies (Sunshine and Holiday) they are very comforting when you don't feel just right.
Keep the faith! I would love to go back go Pennsylvania next time when and If I know you are going, wouldn't that be neat if all of us post surgical patients could possible go back just to meet each other.
Write when you wish or are up to it. love, Karen
Karen Carter