>> ----- Original Message -----
> From: "marianne bolding" <ojowojo@yahoo.com>
> To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS"
> <adhesions@mail.medispecialty.com>
> Sent: Tuesday, August 07, 2001 3:42 PM
> Subject: I don't know
>
> > Well, I had an upper GI done yesterday. Talk
> about
> > nasty barrium stuff...bluck. Completely
> dehydrated my
> > body...and today I have a stomach ache along with
> > "pure" white diarrhea. I assume this is the
> barrium
> > trying to get out of my symptom. Anyone been
> there?
> > I'm going to reach out for a moment here...Ever
> since
> > diagnosis and surgeory I seem to be declining into
> a
> > serious mode of depression. Like "Post surgical
> > trauma/stress" or something. I don't know...it
> just
> > seems that I've had to change everything in my
> life.
> > The way I eat, how I exert myself, eating or just
> > being in public due to gas, friends you thought
> were
> > friends---but they left you standing alone when
> you
> > needed support (family, too), the clothes I wear
> > (excessive bloating), my job and how they handled
> the
> > whole situation with me being out of work (moving
> my
> > office while I was out, losing my personal
> pictures
> > and properties, threatening to fire me if I didn't
> > recupe quick enough for them-even with doctors
> > documents), my relationship-I was telling my
> husband
> > last night I need more help and support mentally
> and
> > physically...he said "Huh?" (He was watching a
> > baseball game)...repeated myself and he said,
> "It'll
> > get better."...then started yelling at the ump on
> t.v.
> > He didn't get I needed to talk. When I told him
> I
> > needed it desperately...he said "I'm just so
> tired."
> > (He's always tired..or busy...or just selfish). I
> > told him in advance, I wouldn't probably feel well
> > after GI, I wasn't allowed to eat or even drink
> all
> > day yesterday before the test (and it hit 105 in
> > Tucson), I had only barrium in my stomach and that
> I
> > needed him to take care of our dinner for the
> first
> > time in 2 months. He said sure no prob. But,
> when
> > the day rolled around...he left it in my lap
> again. I
> > resent the fact I've been so supportive to all
> these
> > people when they needed it...but, noone can seem
> to
> > turn the tables back for me. My whole outlook on
> > people and life is changing. I don't
> know...thanks
> > for letting me share. And to not "thoroughly
> depress"
> > anyone else out there by my whiny letter...How
> many
> > cups of coffee can I drink to make my stool turn
> "not
> > white"? LOL and Don't you hate the pimples that
> are
> > under the skin...no whitehead so you can't squeeze
> > them...but, they hurt like a you know what! LOL
> > Pain-free days to all. My love, Marianne B.
> >
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