Dear Sue,
If only I could fly through cyber space and give you one of my special gentle hugs..... I understand, most of us here do.... we have been in your situation and we are here for you no matter what. Best wishes & prayers, lets hope that some solution can be found for you.
Just promise us one thing, come back to us after surgery, and find someone to keep us posted on how you go in surgery and during recovery until you can get back to us yourself. This board is all about helping us all cope, day by day, and if a purge is what you need, then let it rip as often as you like..... you see, I tend to be the chatterbox of this group
So best wishes to you and let us know when the surgery is..... we will be praying for you and waiting to hear how you are.
Love and warm gentle hugs,