Angie from Sally
From: Sally Grigg (lostcst@mcn.org)
Thu Mar 28 20:07:18 2002
Angie, I'm sorry you have to make all these decisions, but you seem to have
some time which is good. I'm not a doctor, nor can I give medical advice.
I'm only a fellow adhesions sufferer. I hope you have gone to the adhesions
site http://www.adhesions.org and read the stories on the quilt plus the archives
and back emails, expecially from Helen Dynda. She has a way of finding just
the information you need. And some people have adhesions and suffer no pain.
Nobody knows why.
And to answer your question about what I was taking before oxycontin, I was
on pain patches (still am) and roxicodone which makes me very sleepy and
doesn't cut through the pain. I also spent a great deal of time thinking of
ways to do myself in. It's true, I'm not going to hide it. Obviously, I've
got a strong will to live and my husband laughs at me whenever I mention
something like that cause I'm such a bad back seat driver he can't imagine
any one suicidal who would care so much about how he drvies. And he's right,
I want to live. I just don't want to be in agony 24 hours a day seven days a
week.
I've managed to function because I own an Inn and have help plus a husband
whom I'm always complaining about but who looks like a Greek God and
actually gives me a lot of support. He just has a big mouth.
I don't know what to tell you, but I do know that your choices are not
either " it comes out or I live on pain meds the rest of my life". It's not
that simple at all.
Please, please, please do your research by going to the site and reading.
And I'm not afraid of becoming a drug addict. When my pain is gone, I'll
gradually go off the meds, believe me, my husband and mother will be right
here making sure I do. But I also want to. They don't make you high. They
make you nauseous and make you feel weird, but not as bad as agony. The
media has done oxycontin a terrible wrong, or rather it has done we who
suffer a wrong. We don't smash up the pill to get high, Heaven forbid, I'd
be scared to death to, after all those times I prayed to God to die, I'm
scared now he might finally listen and I really want to live. So hang in
there.Love, Sally
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