Dear Helen, When you feel like that is when you're supposed to come to the board so we can commiserate with you, but I know what you mean. If you tell people what you are really thinking, I'm always afraid they will come with the straight jackets and take me away. It's a terrible thing to be in constant pain. I wish you could find a new specialist who could perhaps find out something real about your pain. I know you've had just about every test under the sun but there must be one they have missed, I'll call you soon and we can have a long chat if you are up to it. Or not, if you're too tired. I've missed our chats at night by the way. You always add a certain "spice" shall I say, to the conversation. Love, Sally