At Fri, 16 Aug 2002, Lori wrote:
>
>Hi everyone,
>
>I just wanted to let you know what has been going on
>with me. Sorry I havent been in here, but it has been
>horrific pain for me to sit upright to sit at the puter.
>
>After I had my doctor tell me that the pain was in my
>head and that I was making it up, and that the only thing
>there was left for me to do was to go see a shrink..
>I fired him.
>
>I called my HMO, unfortunately I am stuck with a state
>insurance since I am unable to work, and my husband
>has lost his job because I can no longer care for myself
>or our two kids. So we are both unemployed now, and have
>to deal with the state insurance.
>
>Well after I fired that doctor. I called the insurance
>and told them I wanted another doctor. This was around
>July 4 or so. The insurance company told me that I had
>to wait until Aug 1 before they could send me to another
>doctor and switch my insurance card to that doctor.
>
>So of course I had to go back to the ER because I had
>nothing for pain. And told them I had an appt with a
>new doctor for Aug 7th.
>
>They gave me I think a perscription of 20 pills to last
>me a month, which you guys know doesnt last all that long.
>
>I was bed ridden for the whole month, like I said I could
>not do nothing for myself, or my family..and my husband
>lost his job so he could stay home and take care of me.
>
>I went to go see this new primary doctor Aug 7th..and
>after all that waiting and pain, and 5 min in the doctors
>office, he told me he was referring me to yet another doctor
>An obgyn. Now in the past I was turned away from an OBGYN
>because they said there was nothing they could do for me
>since I dont have any woman parts left. I tried to tell this
>new doctor this and he told me, sorry there is nothing I can
>do for you, but to refer you to this obgyn...
>
>I call the OB and they tell me that the soonest they can
>see me is Sept 9th. So now I have more waiting...He gave
>me a perscription for pain meds, but only a weeks worth.
>They are gone, and I am in terrible pain once again. I cant
>get out of bed, sit in a chair, and I have to crawl to
>the bathroom.
>
>I am sooo jealous of some of you that have wonderful
>doctors that understand that you are in pain. I have to
>BEG for relief, and then when they finally give me some
>medication...Its only a weeks worth
>
>I am at my wits end, I dont know how long I can do this.
>I cant find a doctor to help me, with medication, or even
>with surgery. I dont know if this is
>just California doctors, or if this is because I am on
>state insurance. But what am I suppose to do???
>We are on state insurance BECAUSE of the pain, i cant
>work of course, now my husband cant work either because
>someone has to take care of me.
>
>Sorry guess I just needed to rant. I'm just soo damn
>frustrated!!! I feel like there is NEVER going to be
>an end to this. And there is only soo much a persons
>body can take. Its pretty bad when your 10 yr old daughter
>looks at you in the morning and says
>Mommy will you be able to get out of bed today?
>And ofcourse I have to tell her no...Mommy will be in bed
>all day again. I know everyone here says no surgery...
>but I cant find any type of relief, not with rest, medication
>nothing. My history has been after my surgeries, I have at least
>a year and a half worth of pain free life before it starts again
>and since I have been in excrutiating pain for 7months now...I am
>ready for surgery. But I cant get a doctor to give me meds let
>alone surgery... So what now?? (shrug)
>
>My thoughts and prayers are with you all!
>Lori