At Thu, 15 Aug 2002, Chantale wrote:
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>Hello everyone Im sorry that this is going to be kinda a grumpy letter
>but I am so mad right now. I was supposed to have surgery in the
>beginning of Sept to take down my adheasions plus possible a resection
>of my bowel and possible take out my ovary and tube. Anyway my gyne
>surgeon wants me to see a bowel surgeon before my surgery which I
>totally understand. But he said that he hoped that my surgery would be
>early Sept. The bowel doctor cant see me till Sept 25th and now my
>gynes secretary says that his surgery schedule is booked almost through
>sept and into Oct-Nov. I am in terrible pain as you all are
>experiencing and I just am starting to feel beaten by this stupid
>problem. I feel like just giving in. I know that sounds so lame but
>ive been fighting for three years for someone to believe that there was
>anything really wrong with me. All tests came back normal. Untill that
>is untill they did emergency surgery in May and saw all the adheasions
>in my abdomen. And then I called my mom crying about the surgery thing
>and all she kept saying is Well thats the way the health care system is
>and that I need to be PATIENT. Im sorry but I feel like Ive been
>patient for three years and Im good and tired of it. It feels to me
>like she is saying that she dosent believe the pain I experience every
>day. I am on Percocet and that would be fine to be on that all the time
>but Im scared to be on it to much as I have three very young children
>that need me during the day so I take it as little as possible. I am
>scared for myself and I am scared for my children and husband they have
>had to live with this devil woman we like to call me for the past three
>years. I hate my life right now. I know I will get the surgery and it
>may be a month or two away yet but I just saw an end in sight and now I
>see more pain and more waiting. Im sorry this is such a poor me letter
>but I am just soooo sad right now.....
>
>sorry this was so long
>Love Chantale