No Lynn, he won't read anything i ask him to! He just say's well, we need you
working, or we sink! He honestly thinks i am a machine, and should be able to
keep going! Even when i am crying, he just tells me to grow up, and handle
it! Lynn, I just don't think, I can stay much longer in this, it's too hard,
we have had counselling as well, and with my little guy, wow, it's tough!
Sex, he expects all the time, and by 8pm i am so wiped out, i need to go to
bed! So, once morning comes, he is angry with me! So the stress of all that,
on top of my pain, is becoming unbearable! Through all this, I do find
comfort, and happiness with my son, who is seven, and is more understanding
than anyone in this family! I still find time to laugh, and try to make light
of all my misfortunes! I believe strongly, that if i try to stay positive,
and strong, I will get through the hardest of times, it's just that some
day's I find I cry alot, and feel like giving up! But I only have to think of
how much I am needed as a mother, and it keeps me going! Thank you for
writing to me Lynn, I appreciate it so very much!