I have finally got back on the internet, I was VERY happily surprised to
get a phona call after 3 months from my dear friend Millie, she took the
time and found me at my job in Cinti! Tears came real fast, I have been
having alot of trouble with pain from adhesions and very poor sex drive
over the past 5 years. In Dec my husband of 21 years filed for divorce,
and we go to court tomorrow! I have been crying daily and do not want to
lose him, he stayed with me last night and told me the big things
causing this so that I always wanted new things, and I NEVER wanted any
sex, I told him I cannot live without him and he told me the love was
gone from his heart but he cares about me, I have to get it back, he
admitted he did not reallt know what happened and I told him I was going
to contest the dissoltion tomorrow, my sister in llaw said it will not
go through with out counseling if even one of us does not want it, I am
not sure if that is true, but when I told him he aid well maybe you will
hhave to force me to seek counseling! I promised him things would be so
different f he would give me the chance, and I also reminded him of all
the surgery and pain I deal with , and when we slpet together we had sex
last night, I told him to please give me a chance to show him I LOVE
HIM! I have felt like not even living aymore , the docs have drugged me
up so I can get through this! I am so lonesome I cannot stand it, and my
crappy job cut my hours to 10, the week from next knowing I need full
time! I need some advice on this divorce ladies I am so afraid of beoing
alone I need him terribly to get help. We have all ahd rough times but
have to work together to stay together, God I do not want to lose him
and I guess I already have, and them he says you never know what a year
may bring! BOY is he confued!!!! What should I do I told him I cannot
let go!!!!!!!!!