>----- Original Message -----
From: "AnnMarie" <sweetlilqt913@aol.com>
To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <adhesions@dns.obgyn.net>
Sent: Sunday, June 22, 2003 12:03 PM
Subject: Re: Annemarie, Where are You?
> Thank you sherry. I really am aswwet girl, butsome times feel like this
> pain is making a monster out of me. Agian thank you for keeping me in
> your prayers I will do the same for you.
>
> At Sun, 22 Jun 2003, AnnMarie wrote:
> >
> >DEAR ANNMARIE,
> >SAW YOU POSTED AND JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU
AND
> >WILL SAY A LITTLE PRAYER FOR YOU TONIGHT.
> >YOU SOUND LIKE SUCH A SWEET GIRL AND SOOO YOUNG TO HAVE ALL THE PROBLEMS
YOU
> >DO. I , TOO , SUFFER FROM ADHESIONS AND KNOW ALL TOO WELL THE PAIN YOU
ARE
> >GOING THRU.
> >YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS,
> >SHERRY G.
> >-----Original Message-----
> >From: "AnnMarie" <sweetlilqt913@aol.com>
> >To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <adhesions@dns.obgyn.net>
> >Date: Sunday, June 22, 2003 12:03 AM
> >Subject: Re: Annemarie, Where are You?
> >
> >>I'm not sure if you were asking aout me or if there is another AnnMarie
> >>here.
> >>well if it was me, thank you very much for askin about me. I still come
> >>on the site every night, I just havent posted a message in a while,
> >>because I have been so sad and upset lately. I have just been thinking
> >>about how I had so many dreams and high expactaions for myself, and
> >>wondering if they are ever gonna come true. Since I was four I wanted
> >>to be a nurse so I can help people.But I figure how in the world am I
> >>ever going to be able to help people if I cant even help myself and need
> >>to take medication . I'm not even sure how long I have had adhesions,
> >>since I had my first abdominal surgery when I was 5 weeks old,for my vp
> >>shunt and had a few more from then untill I was in 5th grade the after
> >>that all heck broke loose.I had tons of surgeries on my shunt and since
> >>7th,grade have had many gyno surgeries with a total of 23 surgeries.and
> >>my mom
> >>told me I always complained "my belly hurt." and up untill last year I
> >>had alot of pain which was told was from "massive adhesions " that
> >>"adheared everythin to everything, and there wasnt a single organ in my
> >>pelvis that was free. after having 4 surgeries in 2 months because
> >>everytime I had surgery on my shunt they would close me up and the
> >>abdominal incsion would got infected all over agian, and that was july
> >>of last year (2002)with the longest hospital stay being 37 days, plus
> >>going home on IV meds for 2 months after. So my first summer after
> >>graduatin high school(I graduated june 7th 2002) i spent in the hospital
> >>and at home hooked up to an IV. So I expected to start my way on my
> >>dream to be a nurse this summer and start taking summer classes little
> >>did I know that starting last december the pain I used to have alot
> >>turned into every day horrible pain that I need to take medication for,
> >>and because I have had so many meds from past surgeries and havea very
> >>high tolerence to them, nothing seems to work, well. I'm on 40mg of oxy
> >>contin and max of 2 a day of oxycodone IR for breakthrough pain, and i
> >>still get ons of break through pain and can never sleep. the meds dont
> >>make me sleepy at all.I'm also on 50 mg of zoloft for anxity and i was
> >>on 300 mg of neurontin but it made my legs hurt so bad and made my hands
> >>tingle and go numb, so i only take 100 sometimes 200 mgs o it now.I just
> >>feel like I'm never gonna be a normal person nevermind a norma 19 yr.
> >>old. and eveything I've always wanted t do is never going to happen.
As
> >>far as gettin my pcp to give my insurence permission so they will cover
> >>it for me to go to PA to have surgery with D.r Gerhart and hopfully Dr
> >>reich too, I am getting so fusterated. I dont know what else I can say
> >>or do to get him to let me go. I havent even made my next follow up
> >>appt.to talk abou my meds untill I get to the pain clinic july 11th
> >>cause I'm afriad when I go he wil ask me how the meds r workin and when
> >>I tell him i still have alot of break thru pain he will get mad and just
> >>takeme off all the meds, and then i will have nothing. I dont know my
> >>next appt, I am going to take my mom with me since she canbepersistant
> >>when she needs to be. I just wish he's realize that I want to live a
> >>normallife someda and make all my dreams come true while I still can and
> >>have a family somday. I know i've said this before but I'm sorry to cme
> >>on here and complain and write a long boring book. I just dont know hat
> >>else to d anymore, I'm so so sad and fusterated an upset, I have been
> >>talking with Dawn ose and she helps SOOOO much, just by being there, and
> >>se actually got me info n a uro/gyno that i am going to go see after i
> >>go to the pain clinic, but she has her own life,and is going thru some
> >>things right now and I feel bad bothering her with mine. Well I guess I
> >>will stop boring everyone and complaing ad go lay in bed and not fall
> >>asleep ( haha) I hope everyone is doind alot better them I am and I wish
> >>everyone pain free days ahead.
> >>
> >>At Sat, 21 Jun 2003, Sally Grigg wrote:
> >>>
> >>>Dear Annemaire, How are you doing? Did you post and I missed it?
> >>>I hope you're okay. Sometimes I get busy, though I try to check the IAS
> >>>Board everyday, sometimes I don't always succeed. Anyway, thinking of
> >>>you.
> >>>Love, Sally Grigg
> >>
>