Lillian...
Reading your email has made me sad....you are not alone, please know that.
There are plenty of us who cannot afford to go to Germany but we musn't give
up. Positive thinking is half the battle...believe me, most mornings I'd rather
stay in bed but I find if I force myself up, take a shower and go to work, I
feel much better. I am going to be 43 next month so we're about the same age.
Wish I could give you a big hug! Keep your chin up and know that we are all
here for you.