Robin...
It sounds like you have a wonderful husband and kids who love you. Since we
cannot make up for lost time, stop trying and live everyday to it's fullest.
My son has lived most of his life with a sick Mom too, he's been there through
it all, through my almost nine month hospitalization. The other night as I
was throwing up and crying because I had just had it, he came in the bathroom,
helped me get to the couch, brought me pillows and a blanket and a glass of
water, I love him so much! I cannot wait until the day that I can be pain free!