I want to give up......but I wont
From: Kristie (extrafeetmom@yahoo.com)
Tue Mar 23 21:02:45 2004
It's been a long time since I posted on here. I really haven't had good
experiences on message boards. I so tired and exhasted from fighting
pain I just feel like giving up. I went for about a month pretty pain
free right after seeing my new doctor in SLC Utah. I had a trigger
point injection and I did well. I think I did well. The thing is, my
sister was killed and I was so busy trying to take care of my aged
parents for a month (I live in California and they live in Utah), I just
didn't have pain. Now I am home and a week after coming home I want to
just die along with my sister at times. Tonight I am in so much pain
and I can't go to a hospital. It's a joke to go there. I would have to
wait all night to get taken care of.
I am so anxious. So much is going on. I want to be medication free but
I can't. I can't sleep with out something. And tonight the pain is so
bad I can't seem to get to relax. I took an "Aluna" which is a natural
pill.
I sure would never take my own life because I have seen first hand what
death does to a family unexpectedly. Besides I am very religious.
But man I hurt so bad. I just want IT to end.
Sorry for rambling..........I just am so tired. And hurting.
Kristie
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Let's be good to ourselves....Kristie