Surgery Next Week - Please pray for me
From: Jawana Coleman (jcoleman@awpk.com)
Fri Jul 29 17:12:51 2005
Hi! Hope everyone is having a low pain day. I have posted several times
and have appreciated Learning from your experiences and advice. I have
decided to have one last surgery to remove endo and adhesions. I go in
next Thursday morning and I am scared. If this one doesn't work
long-term, I give up. I have been under the care of a pain mgmt dr for
almost a year now and have not had surgery to remove adhesions since
last Feb. I did hvae my gall bladder removed in June of last year, but
that doesn't count. Besides alleviating that pain, I think I grew
adhesions there as well.
Anyway, I agree with Rach. Even a few weeks or months with less pain
will be worth it. After you have been on pain drugs for a long period
of time, thye don't work as well. You take more and more just to
alleviate the pain and I hate the way I feel on high doeses of
narcotics. I figure that if I have surgery I can at least cut down the
pain meds for a period of time and give my body a rest. I expect that
the adhesions will reform as they have done after the previous 3
surgeries, despite the barriers and my doctor's will.
I have decided, though, that this is it for me. If this surgery does
not provide long term relief, I will have to find a way to deal with
long-term pain meds. I don't want to get my hopes up again only to have
them dashed again. When the pain returns, you just feel like bawling
your eyes out. And you hide it as long as possible because you don't
want to tell your family and friends that the surgery did not work and
that the pain is back. I have gotten to the point that I rarely mention
the pain to anyone but my husband because of the looks I get. I don't
want to be seen as a whiner or a cry baby. I am tough as nails!!
Please pray for me next Thursday. Even though I am tough, I am also
realistic and therefore just a little bit scared. Thanks - Jawana
Feel free to contact me at jcoleman@awpk.com
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