Jeanne, Boy, you took the words right out of my mouth with your email. Saturday my husband is getting ready to go over to a cousins where we all get together. I don't like to go anymore cause I feel so crappy all of the time and they all drink and the life of the party can't anymore. So, I choose to stay home cause I just had to take all the medication for a colonoscopy cleansing and I feel like shit, literally. Which I have to take at least once a month cause I get so backed up. He goes and I stay at home and cry. But, of course he offers to stay home and I insist he goes, why should we both me miserably. My husband does everything now and at times needs a way out for his own sanity. My medications wont even fit in a gallon sized bag anymore. Pill box for morning, pill box for afternoon, pill box for bedtime. Wow isn't life grand. But, a we have this site, thank goodness, we know we are not alone. I thank god everyday for my family, they get me threw the bad, sad, and happy days. I never thought my life at 38 years old would be this way, but at least I have a life, what it may be. God bless all of you and may 2008 bring us all some happiness and relief.