Re: Dear Cheryl/Sally/pain meds worked out

From: Christina (barkbark@cox.net)
Sun Mar 1 16:53:03 2009

I try to tell myself, "Tomorrow will be a better day." Maybe an extra episode of Joyce Meyers will work. Maybe if I pay my kids $20.00 to help me with ONE load of laundry I can catch up. I find myself laying on the couch telling myself, "I really need to see a pain specialist about this because I can't take it anymore....WAIT.. I AM SEEING A PAIN SPECIALIST!!! I already looked for other doctors but they want $350.00 for a first visit. My x-husband quit paying me $200.00 a month for babysitting and house work because I failed to keep up with two loads of wash a day, keeping counters,stoves,microwaves,vaccuumung the house- I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE. Because my specialist told me I needed to get a great job, I enrolled in a four year college degree program online. I am totally lying to myself thinking that I will recover-that I will get beter,but what am I supposed to do, give up? I have nobody willing to take care of me. I cannot get married to someone with geat health insurance because some of my diseases are sexually transmitted (and having sex hurts real bad). My energy level is getting worse. If I do not drink at least 20 cups of coffee a day or take my milk thistle, I get real weak. The milk thistle keeps me from getting that sick feeling that Hep C sufferers get, It does work great. I thought I could find a way to treat this pain issue alone and I found nothing. I wish I never started college. If I knew I would be in this kind of pain before I had my gallbladder out, I would have just let myself die. I suffered with this pain for years. I thought my gallbladder was the whole problem. After my surgery, the green vomit and the green acidic "diarrhea" stopped completely, but the pain remained. My body is a complete lemon and my doctor "DOES NOT UNDERSTAND WHY I AM IN PAIN? He is a pain specialist? I am starting to douby this very much but he is the only one I can afford. I need someone to pray for me and ask God to please take this pain out of my body. I do not want to run a marathon or have wild sex... I want to walk normally. I am tired of cringing everytime someone walks towards me because I am afraid they will knock into me and hurt me. I am tired of not being able to bend over to get chips out of the bottom cabinet for my kids lunches. My son Richy hates me because I do not play catch with him anymore. I was a fun mom until my pain medication was screwed with. Why did dicloflenac and gabapentin hurt me wqorse than anything I ever did to myself? I had a migrainer and could not take naproxen for it-and this migraine was a 10 point on the pain scale. I lived on naproxen for years, why does it bother me now? I don't want to kill myself, but I do wish for god to give me some pain relief. I am at my witts end on this subject and I think I am officially crazy. If the pain isn't enought, the depression makes things really scary. I have everything in the world I want, except for the full use of my body. If anyone out there found something that works, please e-mail me at barkbark@cox.net as soon as you can. I am alone in this and I can't take it anymore. I don't want to cry anymore..I want to get mad!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank all of you for your time. Dr.Cuddy

>----- Original Message -----
From: "Cuddy" <barkbark@cox.net> To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <adhesions@mail.obgyn.net> Sent: Wednesday, February 25, 2009 9:54 AM Subject: Re: Dear Cheryl/Sally/pain meds worked out

>I have Fitz-Hugh-Curtis Syndrome along with the PID. My pain
> specialist: "CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY I AM IN PAIN!!" I originally did not
> believe in pain medication until now. I had the pain specialist (the
> one that understood I was in pain)take me off the percocet and drop me
> down to Lortab 10/500 because I figured if I suffer a little, I would
> not get "hooked." The last visit, the doctor told me he cannot keep
> "giving me pills" because he cannot see why I am in pain. (Keep in mind
> that it takes a referral to get into one of these clinics) My next visit
> is in March. The reason why I am writing is because if there is any
> other way to deal with this, please let me know. And, what is going to
> happen when they take me off of the Lortab all of a sudden? (I am
> barkbark@cox.net). I feel as though politics are involved and this is
> the price I have to pay because "Las Vegas" has a reputation. I am more
> afraid of that pain comming back more than I am afraid of dying. Please
> someone send me an e-mail.
>
> At Tue, 30 Oct 2001, Sally Grigg wrote:
>>
>>Dear CHERYL, I'm sorry you're going through such problems, I was too for a
>>little while, I have a wonderful local doctor, but he had decided to cut
>>back
>>on my meds to see what happened, well, what happened was pain, pain, pain.
>>
>>I've tried mind over matter, but it hasn't worked yet. I wish there was
>>some
>>way you could ommunicate with your present doctor that it doesn't have to
>>be
>>either this or that. I'm trying a combination of opiates, including the
>>patch
>>and oxycontin, plus a few other milder ones. The point is not to take more
>>pills or medication. The point is to be pain free or relatively pain free
>>with
>>the minimum quanitiy of medication. When you mix them, it works best for
>>me.
>>If I'm feeling in so so pain, I take a less potent pill, If I feel like
>>screaming I take a very strong pill. I'm on the patch continuously and it
>>help
>>tremendously. But it needs to be supplemented with other pills.
>>
>>Is there any way you can get this across to your doctor, without offending
>>him. Mine gets kidney stones, and I really believe it has made him a more
>>compassionate man. Everytime, he starts to withdraw my meds, and I start
>>to
>>begin to get upset, I believe he remembers his pain and listens to me and
>>we
>>work something out. So far, so good.
>>
>>Your doctor unfortunately sounds a little childish, sorry, but you
>>probably
>>already think this. He shouldn't be emotionally attached to his diagnosis,
>>and
>>he should be aware that extreme pain needs to be treated in any way
>>possible.
>>
>>We're not in the way of clear lives with no medication, we just want to
>>live
>>somewhat normally without laying in bed all day and moaning and crying.
>>I'm
>>reading the book, Full Catastrophy Living, and So far, so good. Keep up
>>your
>>good spirits. Maybe if you wrote him a letter with the board editing it,
>>he
>>would understand. Good luck., Love, Sally
>>
>
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