New here, long rant
From: IAS Admin (tracy.joslin@adhesions.org)
Mon Oct 12 19:57:05 2009
From: adhesions@adhesions.org [mailto:adhesions@adhesions.org] On Behalf Of
Teresa Franklin
Sent: Saturday, October 10, 2009 6:30 AM
To: adhesions-request@adhesions.org
Subject: Re: New here, long rant
Kim, i too suffer from adhesion's. like u how does one operation cause so
much grieve in ones life. i had got to the point of killing my self, until
i was visited by the Holy spirit that made me realize that my life did not
belong to me but to the Lord and i had no right to take it away. the only
thing that i have to hold on to Kim is the fact that God hears our prayers
and we must hold on. i think the one Scripture that sticks in my head is the
one that said he would not put no more on us than he knows we can bare. i am
to the point now that God has a plan for my life, even in the pain. just
like with u he is able to use me to help comfort some of the people that may
be in the same shape i am in.i think the other thing Kim is
this debilitating illness has change my life, to look more like Christ, the
love and compassion that i now have for people is so much more than before.
i like u, had every thing, a good job at G.m. retired, now i am about to
lose my health care and all the other benefits that i had with them. Oh u
don't know where i am with all this, i need my health care, i am in and out
of the emergence room all the time just for pain. i was also tagged as a
person that just wanted drugs. , but now i don't care what they think i know
who i am and i know that i am in pain, so there it is.i hope that i could be
of some help to u , and remember i can not do this with the Lord. i don't
know where u are with him however if u don't know him u don't have nothing
to lose to try him. love Ann
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Subject: New here, long rant
From: kimberlyecanonico@hotmail.com (Kimberly)
Subject: New here, long rant
I had a laparoscopy for "endometriosis" in August 2008. I woke up from
the surgery in excruciating pain and with constant gas. Weeks went by
and the constant gas did not stop. You could hear it in my belly like a
fish tank. The gas actually liquified. Its the worst pain I could ever
have imagined. When I went back to the doctor he told me that I would
never be satisfied and that he fixed me. I ended up having adhysolysis
in January 2009 but the gas pain persisted and moving my bowels began
becoming even more difficult. I have been hospitalized for pain atleast
15 times since the first surgery which I developed c-diff from.
I am 33 years old with a 3 year old daughter and a husband. The pain has
been so debilitating that I have needed help with my daughter and now my
whole family lives with my mom and dad so we can be together even though
my husband works. We are paying a mortgage on a house we never live in
because I can't raise my daughter alone in pain while my husband works.
Recently, we went to a doctor to bring on my period since I never got it
after the first surgery in 2008.
Apparently the adhesions bound my uterus to my bladder, my intestines to
each other and my ovary to itself. At that doctor appointment we were
shocked to learn that I am pregnant. When I ended up in the hospital for
pain again, they put a lot of pressure on me to abort the baby and stopped
my medication cold turkey. I denied the abortion because I just couldn't
live with myself if I did it. When I got home from the hospital, I made a
terrible decision and tried to medicate myself. It was hard to go from
xanax and dilaudid to tylenol so I took 14 benedryl to sleep. I had not
slept in over a week. What I didn't know was that it wouldn't put me to
sleep but would make my heart race and I would hallucinate. I reported
myself to 911. No one was home at the time. When I got to the hospital I
was reported to DYFS for endangering a fetus and being a danger to my 3 year
old.
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