>----- Original Message -----
From: Karla <ifirgit@webcntrl.com>
To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS <adhesions@forum.obgyn.net>
Sent: Monday, July 10, 2000 2:53 AM
Subject: :(
> :( :( :( :( :(
>
> Does that say how I feel? No, I guess not. I can't stop crying here. I
> got up and went to church this morning....the first thing I did was pray
for
> the Lord to watch over me and grant me recovery. If that was not to be in
> part of the picture than I asked for him to take me so that I could do
work
> up there.....watch over everyone and help them to find peace. Our pastor
> did his prayers and forgot to pray for me. He realized it during
communion
> and at the end said a prayer especially for me. It may be childish but I
> still feel forgotten......I am all alone in this. On the way out of
church
> my pastor said that he didn't think he could go down to Chicago for my
> surgery and then my mom told me that she hadn't found a way down and that
> she would come visit at another point. I feel so deserted....and I know
> that is childish and I have gone through surgeries alone before, but this
> one feels so different. I feel as though I shouldn't have the
> surgery.....my family doesn't care anyway so why should I put myself
through
> this.....let the good Lord take me.
>
> I know this all sounds so immature but I feel so alone. I guess I am
> turning to you all for emotional support because you are my family and I
> love you all.
>
> Karla
>