Recovering from surgery
From: Stacey (SAM7398@AOL.COM)
Sun Feb 11 19:32:55 2001
Hi everyone,
I just want to thank each and everyone of you for your support and
prayers. The surgery I had on 1/31, went well...so far. I came through
it very good....My surgeon who was expecting a hour long surgery ended
up in the OR with me for about 3 1/2 hours. My insides were a complete
mess again....and this is just after having surgery just 4 months ago.
So, this is 2 surgeries in 4 months. I am still in a great deal of pain
and I am just not sure if it is all post-op or adhesions already. I am
beginning to feel a little better, although I can't eat anything. If I
do my stomach swells up to the size of a watermelon and boy am I in
pain. I am not doing so good emotionally right now though. I am not
getting very much support from my boyfriend of 7 years anymore. I think
he is just tired of my sicknesses. We were together 7 years and then we
split up and were apart for 3. We just got back together about 10
months ago and the whole time we have been back together I have either
been in the hospital or laid up in pain. I love him very much. He told
me today that he doesn't know how much longer he can take this. It
broke my heart...I am feeling all alone right now because he was the one
person that I definetly thought I could depend on for support. He does
love me he just says that he can't handle this and if I were to ever
need another surgery he doesn't know if he would ever want to be with me
again. I have already had 5 open abdominal surgeries and I don't want
or plan on having anymore, but with our disease you never know. I just
hate having to wonder in the future if I will just be swept under the
rug because of my sickness. I feel like no one wants to be with me
because of my illness. I married a man after my boyfriend and I split
and he left me because of my illness. I have been crying all day long,
I am in a very deep depression right now which I know does not help my
healing process. Could everyone please keep me in your prayers I am so
scared and don't know what to do about all of this. Thank you again for
everyone's support I don't know what I would do without this website.
In loving friendship,
Stacey
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Stacey