Stacey wrote:
> Hi everyone,
> I just want to thank each and everyone of you for your support and
> prayers. The surgery I had on 1/31, went well...so far. I came through
> it very good....My surgeon who was expecting a hour long surgery ended
> up in the OR with me for about 3 1/2 hours. My insides were a complete
> mess again....and this is just after having surgery just 4 months ago.
> So, this is 2 surgeries in 4 months. I am still in a great deal of pain
> and I am just not sure if it is all post-op or adhesions already. I am
> beginning to feel a little better, although I can't eat anything. If I
> do my stomach swells up to the size of a watermelon and boy am I in
> pain. I am not doing so good emotionally right now though. I am not
> getting very much support from my boyfriend of 7 years anymore. I think
> he is just tired of my sicknesses. We were together 7 years and then we
> split up and were apart for 3. We just got back together about 10
> months ago and the whole time we have been back together I have either
> been in the hospital or laid up in pain. I love him very much. He told
> me today that he doesn't know how much longer he can take this. It
> broke my heart...I am feeling all alone right now because he was the one
> person that I definetly thought I could depend on for support. He does
> love me he just says that he can't handle this and if I were to ever
> need another surgery he doesn't know if he would ever want to be with me
> again. I have already had 5 open abdominal surgeries and I don't want
> or plan on having anymore, but with our disease you never know. I just
> hate having to wonder in the future if I will just be swept under the
> rug because of my sickness. I feel like no one wants to be with me
> because of my illness. I married a man after my boyfriend and I split
> and he left me because of my illness. I have been crying all day long,
> I am in a very deep depression right now which I know does not help my
> healing process. Could everyone please keep me in your prayers I am so
> scared and don't know what to do about all of this. Thank you again for
> everyone's support I don't know what I would do without this website.
>
> In loving friendship,
> Stacey
>
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> Stacey
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