Re: Thanks Mary ;-)

From: Mary Wade (
Mon Mar 12 14:45:57 2001

Trace---I just chalked it up to my body getting used to its new chemistry but do ask your doctor. I am most curious to see what he/she says. When I wasn't sleeping at first, I took tylenol PM for a couple of weeks. Then, I tapered off. Another crazy thing that I have noticed is that I felt like I couldn't see well any more. Then, I realized that my struggle with my glasses is because now I am standing up straighter and holding my head higher. The corrections in my bifocals are all off because I guess I'm not so much in a stooped posture. Also, for the first few weeks, I was more physically clumsy. I guess the signals to my brain about my sense of my body in space was wacky. I'm not sure what to do with all the people in my life, either. All my friends, family and work mates are so used to the "old" me....that now that I am able to do things differently, it kind of intrudes on their space. Can you believe hub and I got cross ways of each other about ME taking the trash out. He'd made it HIS territory all these years and I intruded on HIS trash territory. Think we have post-traumatic stress syndrome? Kidding...well...kinda kidding. It's all just a bit....discombobulating (love that word....dunno how to spell it though. Ooops...maybe it's not even a real word...maybe it's just one of those Kansas "thangs" ever heard that word in Ozland?) Crazy Mary

-----Original Message----- From: niko [] Sent: Monday, March 12, 2001 3:23 PM To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS Subject: Thanks Mary ;-)

Thanks Mary,

It is a scary event though. I really do feel quite crazy ;-) It could be from the medication, I really hadn't thought of that. I refuse to take anything to help me sleep. My partner wants to look at some herbs just to relax me enough to get to sleep. It is a great thing to figure out.. honestly I'm not complaining, just don't understand myself ;-))

Love to you AS ALWAYS !!! Trace xo

>----- Original Message -----
From: "Mary Wade" <> To: "Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS" <> Sent: Tuesday, 13 March 2001 7:10 Subject: Re: Help

> Trace, honey! I'm mental, too, now! I can not believe what you wrote.
> It's exactly what I am going through. I look at myself and think, "WHAT
> is up with THIS?!?!?!?" It's getting better. The sleeping is no longer
a > problem. Concentration is improving slowly. Think some of it is coming
> off the meds? I dunno. It's like I don't know who I am now. I didn't
> realize how my whole world was organized around my pain. But, it's a
> darned sweet thing to get to figure out, I am thinking. Mary
> -----Original Message-----
> From: niko []
> Sent: Monday, March 12, 2001 2:36 PM
> To: Multiple recipients of list ADHESIONS
> Subject: Help
> Hi everyone:-)
> I am hoping to get some advice from you all.
> As most of you are aware, I had an operation a few weeks ago, and I'm
pain > free ;-)) I am forever grateful for that! I had been in pain for over a
> year before this operation. I had a lovely conversation with Colette this
> morning on ICQ, and as I was talking, my own problems kinda became
clearer > to me.
> I can't sleep, I get these awful butterflies in my stomach, they take my
> breath away, and I just toss and turn. Before the operation I would go
> three days at a time without sleep from the pain. I feel so lost without
> the pain. I know it probably sounds stupid, but I really feel so lost.
> My life as I knew it has totally changed. My suffering became this way of
> life. I am scared of doing something that will bring the pain back,
> probably because Endo was present again, I'm not sure. My philosophy has
> always been to worry about things when they happen, and all of a sudden,
I > am pain free and scared. I don't want the pain back, I still have NO
pain. > It's like my brain doesn't understand the change.
> The more I try to get my routine back, the more I start to panic that I
> can't do it. I'm not used to feeling this way, every other time I had a
> rest from the pain I would be off.
> I do feel guilty talking about this, as all of you are dealing with what
> I've been through, and a lot of you wish that you were pain free too.
> Is it possible to mourn the pain? Now I sound ridiculous. Has anyone else
> had this reaction?
> Any suggestions would be most appreciated, I have made an appointment
with > my doctor for Wednesday morning to discuss why this is happening to me,
> hopefully he won't think I'm an utter idiot.
> Your pain pal
> Trace xo
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