Well as I sat up all nite trying to catch up on law studies I just couldnt
concentrate. There have been so many letters posted crying out in despair,
fear, anxiety, nervous and just plain old being fed up. Well ladies I have
to tell you that I have been on the pity pot for a long time and thanks to
some wonderful people on line I've learned not to give up but to keep
fighting, to keep going, to keep living.
Life was given to us for living, for loving, and for laughing.
When I was fighting my cancer fight I took up a slogan and it was simply this:
I am not living to die, but dying to live!
Well I've learned that this applies to ARD too. You life undergoes so many
changes, you family doesn't know how to help us and tend to come off acting
as though they don't care. OUr friends, it seems, are afraid to come by for
fear that it's contagious. In many ways, this battle agains ARD is much
much more difficult than my battles with cancer. Cancer gives you options,
it gives you hope of it being over and you being able to go back to your old
life, but ARD just steals your life, you willingness to keep fighting and you
have got to dig down deep to find it.
Well thanks to my "angel mom" I've learned that no matter how bad it is, I
can and will get though this. 10 years ago they gave me 6 months to live!
HAH! Proved them wrong didn't I? It's going to be the same way with the ARD
I have leanred you can not take more more than one day at a time, one minute
at a time and so on and so foth!
I still amfraid to et too much btut I iufe I shouldn't of left teh dog home
alone, ut I did, so my fault. I just a to go ee my so in his first paly and
I was so proud.
OK I am falling aslee so I am gointo bed guys. I love you all for your
support, but I am falling asleep.
Te still don't know what is etxactly is going on but I have an appt. in
MIssissippi on the 5th and aill be going alone so say some preayers foem .
OK I'm going to bed I can't type anymoer
I love you all,
Love Missy