Re: An awful tragedy /more confessions
From: Sally Grigg (lostcst@mcn.org)
Fri Aug 10 03:21:32 2001
I am writing this against my husbands advice, but I find that I cannot live
with myself, The pills she stole were mine, not the ones I take for pain,
those were hidden, but other ones (generic) prescribed to me which I believe
contained a lot of aspirin among other things, anyway they made me nauseous,
but I didn't throw them away as I should have, I was going to take them to the
pharmacy and find out what was in them.
But regardless, if she hadn't known that I was on pain pills she wouldn't have
taken them. I know she chose her own destiny in the long run, but I'm bearing
such a weight of guilt. I've sat by elderly people and held their hand and
read from the bible as they have died. It was peaceful and okay, they had
lived a long life and were content. She didn't want to die and we spent so
much energy trying to make her live and she couldn't. We did CPR, directly
with oxygen into her lungs, (my husband got vomit in his eye), because vomit
came out of the tube in her lungs from her lungs, we used a defibrillator to
shock her heart, I called and called to her to come back, but she died anyway.
I somehow feel like I should go off all narcotics.....If they are such a draw
to the young for a false high, we have to be aware of this. That's why mine
were hidden, but it didn't matter in the long run. She took something, worse,
something that made her throw-up, and the combination of alcohol was just too
much.
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Sally Grigg wrote:
> Dear friends and anyone else reading this board, recently, a young, 20
> year old girl who had just been diagnosed HIV positive stole a few
> opiate prescription pain pills and died. We believe that she had only
> taken a couple of pills plus drank a small amount of alcohol. She was
> not trying to kill herself, but was trying to "escape the reality of her
> dreaded disease". After her death it was learned that the tests were
> wrong. She was not HIV positive at all. She had vomited during the
> night from the pill/alcohol combination and it presumably went into
> her lungs, killing her.
>
> So, please dear friends, never keep your pills where they can be stolen
> by anyone: your kids, their friends, the neighbors, visitors, out and
> out crooks, etc. and if you or anyone you know are tested for
> something like aids, get a confirmation test. My husband is a volunteer
> fireman and he said it was one of the worst calls he had ever been on.
> They tried to bring her around. She was so young, pretty and healthy
> looking, but they couldn't bring back the dead. We pray to God that she
> is with him and resting peacefully in Heaven.
>
> I massaged her hands and feet for an hour calling for her to come back
> but she couldn't. After they prolaimed her dead I said a prayer service
> over her from memory. With great sorrow, Sally
>