Re: An awful tragedy /more confessions

From: marianne bolding (ojowojo@yahoo.com)
Sat Aug 11 00:49:19 2001


Sally, May the Lord relieve your guilt and pain from this tragedy. We cannot hold ourselves responsible for the actions of others. Had someone else had pain pills she still would have taken them due to the state of mind she was in. If only she would have reached out to someone...to you...for help she could have saved her own life. The Lord is giving her peace with herself now...and she has moved on to a better place that is free from the pain she was in. My warmest thoughts for you, Marianne --- Sally Grigg <lostcst@mcn.org> wrote: > I am writing this against my husbands advice, but I
> find that I cannot live
> with myself, The pills she stole were mine, not the
> ones I take for pain,
> those were hidden, but other ones (generic)
> prescribed to me which I believe
> contained a lot of aspirin among other things,
> anyway they made me nauseous,
> but I didn't throw them away as I should have, I was
> going to take them to the
> pharmacy and find out what was in them.
> But regardless, if she hadn't known that I was on
> pain pills she wouldn't have
> taken them. I know she chose her own destiny in the
> long run, but I'm bearing
> such a weight of guilt. I've sat by elderly people
> and held their hand and
> read from the bible as they have died. It was
> peaceful and okay, they had
> lived a long life and were content. She didn't want
> to die and we spent so
> much energy trying to make her live and she
> couldn't. We did CPR, directly
> with oxygen into her lungs, (my husband got vomit in
> his eye), because vomit
> came out of the tube in her lungs from her lungs, we
> used a defibrillator to
> shock her heart, I called and called to her to come
> back, but she died anyway.
> I somehow feel like I should go off all
> narcotics.....If they are such a draw
> to the young for a false high, we have to be aware
> of this. That's why mine
> were hidden, but it didn't matter in the long run.
> She took something, worse,
> something that made her throw-up, and the
> combination of alcohol was just too
> much.
>
> Sally Grigg wrote:
>
> > Dear friends and anyone else reading this board,
> recently, a young, 20
> > year old girl who had just been diagnosed HIV
> positive stole a few
> > opiate prescription pain pills and died. We
> believe that she had only
> > taken a couple of pills plus drank a small amount
> of alcohol. She was
> > not trying to kill herself, but was trying to
> "escape the reality of her
> > dreaded disease". After her death it was learned
> that the tests were
> > wrong. She was not HIV positive at all. She had
> vomited during the
> > night from the pill/alcohol combination and it
> presumably went into
> > her lungs, killing her.
> >
> > So, please dear friends, never keep your pills
> where they can be stolen
> > by anyone: your kids, their friends, the
> neighbors, visitors, out and
> > out crooks, etc. and if you or anyone you know
> are tested for
> > something like aids, get a confirmation test. My
> husband is a volunteer
> > fireman and he said it was one of the worst calls
> he had ever been on.
> > They tried to bring her around. She was so young,
> pretty and healthy
> > looking, but they couldn't bring back the dead. We
> pray to God that she
> > is with him and resting peacefully in Heaven.
> >
> > I massaged her hands and feet for an hour calling
> for her to come back
> > but she couldn't. After they prolaimed her dead I
> said a prayer service
> > over her from memory. With great sorrow, Sally
> >
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