Dear Toni
I am sorry that you are having these horrible panick attacks, it must be very hard to cope with that on top of everything else. I wish it was possible to jump into the screen & pop out at your place so I could give you a big hug!
It sounds like these panick attacks are because of a chemical imbalance, would that be the right description of it? Now they have confirmed it with blood tests is there medication that will help you? I hope that this is so, and that you get back to your old self again soon.
Don't be a stranger to us, we are here for each other .... complain, yell, scream do whatever you need to do - get it all out of your system!
Love & gentle warm hugs
Jo (Australia)