Hi Bonnie,
I am so sorry that you have been overlooked recently. I skim posts, and
if something pops out at me I will read it. I am terribly concerend
about the level of pain you are experiencing at the moment. Are you
having more severe pain than usual? And, if so, how much of an increase
have you been experiencing? Or, are you just at the end of your rope
with this enire mess? I know exactly how you feel, if this is what you
are feeling. I have been in about eight different degrees of state of
mind and pain, which seems to rotate on it's own axis!
How long have you suffered with adhesions? For me it has only been about
one year, but it feels as if I have always lived this way, at least my
former self seems a dream away. Know what I mean?
I have decided, for myself anyway, to not seek surgery at this time.
Althought it appears that many women have had some success in Germany
using the SprayGel. I guess I shall wait it out to see how long this
new barrier works. I sure hope for the sake of those who have sought
this out that it does prove to be a success.
Hey, listen there, if you ever need to talk I am a phoen call away, or
you cal meail me to talk. I goto school, well am trying to, and have
three small wild and wacky kids, but am or can be available anytime for
people here. It is from this board that I am alive today. Had it not
been for an exceptional woman here, i would have ended it long ago.
Through my own determination, will, and alot of help from
others(education and pain mgmt. friends) I have put myself back on
track. I have really crappy days, but there are many days that are
okay. Write me personally, I of you would like I will give you my phone
number etc.
Please Bonnie, hang in there. It can get better, and remember, we are
there for you.
Happiness.
em
At Fri, 26 Apr 2002, Bonnie L. wrote:
> >I am feeling very lost,alone,and very very sick. I have absolutley no >support here at home noone cares whether I am sick or not and that >hurts, and I come to this board because what I remember this board is >very supportive and I really really need you all and your support. If >not answers just some encourageing words. I have checked here for the >past 2 days, and noone has bothered to respond to my post. It's nice to >know that people out there actually read the messeges posted, but how am >I suppose to know if there is no response? I know my post is typical of >me, but I am at a very very low point right now, and all I wanted was >just some words of encouragement, but didn't get it. Is it because I >have contributed to the board? If so, I am very very sorry. my pain has >me totally immoble sometimes and I cannot always be on the computer. I >am lucky when I can get on. Please don't take this as a put down or >being mean in any way, I am just disappointed,I am also in alot of pain, >so much pain that I wish I could just curl up and die right now. Please >understand that I need you all, I know I am hardly here but you guys are >always on my mind. I am sorry if this is taken the wrong way, I >honestly have no clue what I am saying,alot of it is the disappointment >of my reoccuring pain and also being medicaded beyond coharence. > >Bonnie