You have to decide what is best for you. Know one can tell you what is best for you!!! Your family has no idea what you are going through. I have only had 2 open abdominal surgeries and I don't want another one. I am 47 years old and you are right, the older you get, the harder it is to recoup. Talk to your doctor tomorrow and let him or her know what you are feeling. Make them explain to you why they think you need it so much. Pray a lot today and tonight for God to lead you tomorrow. Do not feel guilty about having a surgeon that is willing to operate. I really do think that you should talk to your pain management doctor also to see if there is anything else that can be done in that area. Just remember, you are the one going through this and you are the one that has to live with the outcome so don't let anyone make you do something that you don't want to. My thoughts and prayers will be with you tomorrow. Please let us know how your day goes.
Lynn
>Hello Friends,
>I just wanted to let everyone know that I have cancelled my surgery on
>Monday. I can't tell you exactly why because I don't really know
>myself, except I just am not ready to handle another big operation. I
>feel bad because I know there are fellow sufferers out there that want
>to have surgery and can't find a surgeon to cooperate with them. I
>think maybe I have just been left in pain too long this time, and I just
>can't handle this. I can't handle it mentally or physically. My family
>thinks I've lost my mind because I won't go thru with this. I've cried
>all day today trying to make the decision. I haven't told myu doctor
>yet, I see him tomorrow for the pre-op. Please God help me for I have
>no more strength. After 11 operations you would think I could breeze
>right thru another one. But I feel the older I am getting the
>Laprotomies are becoming so much more difficult for me. Please say an
>extra prayer for me, to help me find my strength again. I've missed so
>much work the past several months that my employers are never gonna
>understand this. I am hoping that after the holidays maybe I can go
>thru with this. I see my pain management Dr on the 30th and maybe he
>can give me a not so crazy pill and help straighten my mind out, who
>knows, maybe tooooo late for that !!! I'm already on a anti-depressant,
>maybe I should double that !!! Sorry just a little weird humor. Thank
>you everybody for being so wonderful and caring and supportive. You are
>my other family and I love you all........
>Take care, your friend always,
>Tami
-- A new friend