Hello Friends,
I just wanted to let everyone know that I have cancelled my surgery on
Monday. I can't tell you exactly why because I don't really know
myself, except I just am not ready to handle another big operation. I
feel bad because I know there are fellow sufferers out there that want
to have surgery and can't find a surgeon to cooperate with them. I
think maybe I have just been left in pain too long this time, and I just
can't handle this. I can't handle it mentally or physically. My family
thinks I've lost my mind because I won't go thru with this. I've cried
all day today trying to make the decision. I haven't told myu doctor
yet, I see him tomorrow for the pre-op. Please God help me for I have
no more strength. After 11 operations you would think I could breeze
right thru another one. But I feel the older I am getting the
Laprotomies are becoming so much more difficult for me. Please say an
extra prayer for me, to help me find my strength again. I've missed so
much work the past several months that my employers are never gonna
understand this. I am hoping that after the holidays maybe I can go
thru with this. I see my pain management Dr on the 30th and maybe he
can give me a not so crazy pill and help straighten my mind out, who
knows, maybe tooooo late for that !!! I'm already on a anti-depressant,
maybe I should double that !!! Sorry just a little weird humor. Thank
you everybody for being so wonderful and caring and supportive. You are
my other family and I love you all........
Take care, your friend always,
Tami