Hello Captain, I read your mail about anger and I printed it off for
my doctor to see. I realy often wonder if the doctors truly uderstand the
extent of what we go through on a minute by minute basis. I know that if I
dont turn to God, that I can become a monster due to the pain, and have done
so even though I have turned to God. Some people, if they saw me they would
think I was an idiot, because I talk outloud to God and ask him WHY ME! I am
college educated and very mechanical inclined, I was a journeyman millwright
traveling the country and living the good life.I went hunting and fishing as
often as the sun came up, and suddenly its all over. I have friends that ask
me about classic cars and their value, I have a 69 GTO that I can't do
anything with as far as restoring, and yes these things do anger me. I used
to stop alongside the interstate and fix peoples cars and now I cant fix my
own. Anything I put my mind to, I could do it. But pain is a horrible waste
of life. Now looking at what I have just told you, you can probably see that
I did not take much time for God before I got hurt, and even now I find it
hard to take time for the things that I know that God would have me do
because of the pain. But I do know that God works in mysterious ways because
I was just thinking a couple of weeks ago that I had to mention the anger
that has invaded my life to my doctor, because I am not myself in the winter t
ime. The winter takes it out of me and makes life unbearable because the cold
chills go straight to the bone, and their is nothing that I can do about it.
I have just recieved a hotpack brace, but unless I carry a microwave around
with me, it's only good for an hour or so. Another thing that makes me angry
is for anyone to tell me that I have too many pups. My Church family always
tells me that, and they dont understand that animals, no matter how many you
have, are a great comfort to someone in chronic pain. I know that I am
fortunate to be alive, so let me live to the best of my ability, is what I
tell them. Any ways, Thank You for the subject matter about anger. It does me
good to know that there are others that know what we go through on a daily
basis. I thank God for You and I Thankyou personally for finding the subject
matter. I will keep you in my prayers, and May God Bless You Always. Dave