Dear All
I don't post much, but I read everyday what is going on with everyone &
pray for all every night. I havent been doing too well lately. My pain
is just horrible. I havent slept all night since my open abdominal
surgery in June. They found out that my O2 level drops while I sleep,
which might prove to be sleep apnia. I go in for a sleep study on
Thursday night. I hope they will have the answer to my sleep problem
soon. I am still trying to raise money to get to Germany, but it is
going really slow. I have already sold most of my beloved cat & frog
collection on e bay & had some raffles. I sometimes feel I will never
get my life back! I have just been down. I have suffered from bi polar
since pre teen, so being 41, I should be used to the lows, but, I am
not. I just feel so desprate. Although my family, (my hubby & kids)
are very supportive & take great care of me, sometimes they get tired of
hearing about it. I just feel like screaming sometimes!! I hurt like
H___ & I am tired of it. Some days, I am holding on by a thread, most
days, I am good, but, sometimes, it just gets to me really bad. I hate
the crying & feeling sorry for myself. My grandma always told me there
is always someone worse off than me & I believe it, but, somedays are
just too much!! I am glad I have a place that I can come & let these
feeling out. I think getting them out helps. Thanks for taking the
time to read this.
love to all robin M