Re: I can't do this no more ....
From: Sally Grigg (LostCst@mcn.org)
Wed Dec 18 15:47:07 2002
At Tue, 17 Dec 2002, Pascale Vlaun wrote:
>
>Dear all,
>
>I haven't posted any messages for a long time now ... and one of the
>reasons is that I am miserable and tired of the constant pain, just like
>most of you all.
>
>My last hope would be another pain treatment via an epidural pump for 7
>days ... no fun at all to being in that needle but I had to try it
>again, anything for just a little bit of relief.
>Guess what ... it did not work!
>The pain is just as bad if not worse.
>The pain is going to my hip and right leg now, sometimes the pain shoots
>in my leg so bad that it completely paralyses my leg.
>
>I am sorry, but I am tired of the fighting and the constant pain, I can
>not do this no more.
>I never asked for this and I don't think I deserve this neither, this is
>destroying my life!
>
>I am scheduled to go to Holland in January to see yet another doctor and
>my pain doc is suggesting to perform a block of the superior hypogastric
>plexus, but I don't know ... no guarantees and yet another painful
>treatment ...
>
>I admire the people who have been living with pain for so many years ...
>here am I with only 4 years of misery and not even 30 years old!
>I should have a whole life ahead of me still ... but please not like
>this!
>I am afraid I am going to give up, I don't think I am strong enough
>anymore ...
>
>Sorry to open up like this, but I really needed to get this off my
>chest.
>
>I wanted to wish everybody a Merry Christmas and all the best for 2003,
>may it be healthy and pain free, you all deserve it!
>
>Love,
>Pascale Vlaun
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Dear Pascale, Oh, dear, I'm so sorry. I know the feeling of giving up and what
usually comes next. But there is hope and life. You are so young, please read some
of my posts and investigate Dr. Daniel Kruchinski's new methods of treating
adhesions. His way worked for me, and I used to think I was a freak for having
such a weird body. I feel good for the first time in years. Please email me or
call me collect and I'll call you back. I know everybody is different and Germany
is a long ways away, but so is Holland. What's there anyway? Maybe you could be
cured instead of pain control, then maybe I don't know anything. I just know my
own experiences, appendix not withstanding. Take care, Love, Sally Grigg