Hi sweetie, you post all you want, you won't bring us down, that is why we are here. I know how you feel, I have no insurance either, a couple trips to the ER, the Surgery, all the meds, and 5 of us living on one income. It is tough. I have told my kids that Christmas won't be special, but they will recieve special gifts throughout the year instead of just one day.
Hang in there, and I hope you can at least enjoy the time you have with your family because it is irreplaceable, your love and caring for them is more important, they may not see that now but they will realize it later,
Love
Linda