Please do not be so harsh on your self. Take it from me (I lost my
ex-husband to this also), you area strong woman & have an extended family
here. I for one would be dead now if it were not for this site. After my
husband left me & he would not go for counseling either I met the most
wonderful man who I am now married to & have not had sex with him for 7
months due to this horrible disease. So believe me there is someone out
there for you & please DO NOT GIVE UP!!!!!! We are here for you totally.
May the creator hold you in his heart & give you comfort in this time of
need. He will always be there for you!!!!!!!!
Hugs-prayers & pain free moments to my extended family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!