At Wed, 2 Jul 2003, Dalene wrote:
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>It seems to be getting more difficult to work at my job now.I just
>finished seeing my pain dr who put me on demerol for the pain.But I
>don't like being on pain medication of any kind unless I am in serious
>pain. I just had my 10th surgery and lost 4 pints of blood in less than
>30 minutes. I am so scared now, because this pain is not going away and
>I am too afraid that I may lose my job. I have been taking care of my
>mother who's health is not good and have been helping her out the best
>that I can under the circumstances.I love my job and my company knows
>the disease that I have. I am under FMLA intermittinly only.It last for
>only 3 mos at a time. So everytime my FMLA is going to expire, my
>primary care dr just fills out FMLA forms again.The last surgeon I had
>almost killed me. He did not care if I had lived or died. I know
>eventually I'll have to have surgery again soon, but I am trying to put
>it off so that I can finish my bankrupcty with my attorney. I sometimes
>wish I would die on the operating table so that I wouldn't have to put
>so much pressure on my mom and sis. I just hate putting them thru this
>all the time. I have my good days and more often lately bad days. I
>know in my heart that this last surgeon made a horrible mistake on me to
>which I have to live with for the rest of my life. I even have pictures
>to prove he wronged me. I am so grateful for finding this site and I
>pray for each and every sufferer with ARD. I can't afford to go to
>Germany for surgery, but God has helped me along the way. Please pray
>for me.
>Thanks
>Dalene