It seems to be getting more difficult to work at my job now.I just
finished seeing my pain dr who put me on demerol for the pain.But I
don't like being on pain medication of any kind unless I am in serious
pain. I just had my 10th surgery and lost 4 pints of blood in less than
30 minutes. I am so scared now, because this pain is not going away and
I am too afraid that I may lose my job. I have been taking care of my
mother who's health is not good and have been helping her out the best
that I can under the circumstances.I love my job and my company knows
the disease that I have. I am under FMLA intermittinly only.It last for
only 3 mos at a time. So everytime my FMLA is going to expire, my
primary care dr just fills out FMLA forms again.The last surgeon I had
almost killed me. He did not care if I had lived or died. I know
eventually I'll have to have surgery again soon, but I am trying to put
it off so that I can finish my bankrupcty with my attorney. I sometimes
wish I would die on the operating table so that I wouldn't have to put
so much pressure on my mom and sis. I just hate putting them thru this
all the time. I have my good days and more often lately bad days. I
know in my heart that this last surgeon made a horrible mistake on me to
which I have to live with for the rest of my life. I even have pictures
to prove he wronged me. I am so grateful for finding this site and I
pray for each and every sufferer with ARD. I can't afford to go to
Germany for surgery, but God has helped me along the way. Please pray
for me.
Thanks
Dalene