Ready to give up
From: Amy (astanek@truenorthcompanies.com)
Tue Jun 28 23:50:19 2005
I'm not sure were to start. About a year
ago I started to have pain in
my abdomin come to find out it was caused
by my adhesions. I went to
many specialists ended up in the
emergency room many times because the
pain was so bad only to be turned away
and told nothing was wrong with
me and that adhesions did not hurt.
I found a great Dr that wanted to
help and sent me to a surgent that did
laproscopic surgery on my
adhesions in January they sent me home
with in an hour after surgery and
I almost hemredged to deth causing more
compications. I spent a week in
critical care. I was told that my
bladder overy is connected to my
uterous and my uterous is connected
to my back. When I got home I was
pain free for only two weeks. I was
also told that since I did hemrege
the blood made the adhesions readhere.
They told me that they could try
surgery again and do the more compicated
surgery and cut me from belly
button down then put a film between my
orgins but there would be no
gaurantee that it would work. At this
point I can't do another surgery
I have two small children and after
coming minutes from dieing the
thought scares me to death.
The Dr that I started out with put
me back on the pain medications that
actualy do help ease the pain and get
me through the day. The doctors
no longer want me on the pain medication
and sent me to a pain clinic
yesturday. I thought that maybe this
would work. I was told they would
do something called pain maping and
inject some kind of numbing
medication into my abdomin. When I
got there the nurse put in an IV so
I would be able to be sudated the
thought of someone touching my somach
puts me into panic mode. The doctor
came in and told me that he wasnt
going to do the procedure and he wanted
to put me on a sezure medication. I told
him that I have been on sezure medications before
and I had every bad side effects. I was
unable to do the most simple tasks. He then
told me I would be fine and not to worry.
I held back the tears until he walked out
the door. I went into this thinking I
wouldnt have any expectations and I guess
I did. If they can't get rid of my pain
why can't they just let me take the medication
that works. I am so tired.
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